All The Pretty Little Things


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Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Being a mama

I once hear the quote "Making the decision to have a child is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."-- Elizabeth Stone.   This pretty much sumed it up for me.  I remember the first night my oldest Ava was born.  I remember holding her and thinking, "I am it.  If she is sick or hurt or needs anything it is up to me."  I held my tiny perfect baby and felt the mantle of motherhood settle over me and knew in that moment that I would never be the same. I wanted to be the perfect mom.  Ava is now almost 5 and I have two more amazing kids.  I am far from perfect but I have learned that what impacts my experience as a mother most is my perspective. 
I love the Mormon message about Stephanie Nielsen.  She was burnt on over 80% of her body in a plane crash.  The small things like brushing her girls hair, making her kids lunches or giving them baths that she use to be do without even thinking about them, are now hard and involved.  She said she looks at motherhood as more of a privileged.  The first time I heard this it really struck me how blessed I am.  I have three beautiful, healthy, rambunctious little kiddos that I get to take care of everyday.   I get to wake up in the morning to Paisley saying, "I wanna snuggle mommy" and Ava laying in back of me tickling my arm while Jarrod snuggles Boston next to me.  I get to give my little kids bathes and do their hair.  I get to give them as many hugs and kisses as I want and hold their tiny little hands in mine.  I get to tell them how much I love them no matter what and make their lunches and drive them to school.  I get to take them shopping with me, and wash their cute little stained clothes and cook them dinner.  It is so easy for us to get caught up in the day to day of being parents.  I know because I regularly do.  Being a parent is hard.  You run on little sleep and hardly any alone time.  Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to go to the bathroom with out one of my kids wandering in and needing something again:)  But I like to try to remember that being a parent is a privilege.  I like to look for those small moments throughout the day that make it all worth it.  Like the moment when Boston sees Jarrod and says, "Hi daddy." for the first time or when Ava has a long discussion with me about something.  It is so easy to get busy and not appreciate or take the time to enjoy the time we have with our kids when they are young.  All to soon, they will want to sleep in instead of getting into bed with us and the cute little hand prints on the walls and mirrors will be gone. So here is to taking time, putting off the things that don't really matter and enjoying our kids.  Like my mom always says, "they won't remember if you dishes where always done and the house was always clean, but the will remember if you spent time with them." 

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